The good news: I'm all registered for classes! I'm taking Chinese, Modern Chinese History, Intro Drawing, Intro to Buddhism, and the Silk Road Trip class :) Now I just need to get them approved by my school for core credit...I'll get around to it eventually.
The bad news: I just got an email today saying that the Visa paperwork is delayed several more weeks so I won't get it til mid-July. I know it only takes 5 days to get a Visa and everything, but I'd still really like to get it done ASAP in case something goes wrong. Ahhh I know I'm over thinking all this but government stuff like this makes me really nervous.
I guess I'm just having a hard time adjusting to summer and being excited for China. I'm having trouble caring about a lot of things I'm so drained. With Finals, and move out, leaving one job that I love for a new one...just a whirlwind of activity that's left me feeling a bit unbalanced. It was just so weird saying goodbye to so many people for 6 months! This school year I grew so much and I had so many new friendships by the end of it...and I felt like I had finally figured out college somewhat only to say goodbye to it all for a while. I know that I really need this 6 month break from being a student at SCU, but it's still freaking me out that I'm leaving behind this life that I've built for myself, even if it is just for a little while. Then the other part of me cannot wait to get on the plane to Beijing and run away for awhile because maybe all of the challenges I'm currently facing won't hurt so much if I'm on the other side of the world. But I've tried that before, running away to a place where no one knows me, and everything I was running away from dealing with just followed me.
All of these emotions just make me feel so insane because it really is insanity to want so many conflicting things at once...
